Almost freedom

A feeling of mine..

 

I am almost freedom. I can ton or stay outside!! When i said i'm not going back to his house.. He smile back at me. Giving me a expression of agreeding with a smile. It seems weird. He had totally changed. No longer being angry at me and with his same answer NO!!

Guessed he already getting tired my pattern. So soon. Did not expect this to happen so real soon.. I'm totally shocked for this.

 

Things will change soon. And i will be back to my freedom days!! We had been together almost 3years.. This 3years was tough yet so fun, lovely and prettiest days i ever had. They had all filled in with love everyday. For every second bits, they were all my previous and those moments will always stay in my heart forever. I will never never forget all these.

 

Perhaps i am thinking too much. I don't know?? Why are all these happening to me? I am suffering with fear so much and i'm so afraid of losing someone.. I always have this unsecured feeling after we quarrel and i always have many negative thinking.. Like he is going to leave me and etc. Many times things is not what i've thought so, is just part of my fake imagining..

 

*Sorry for the moodless post*

 

(I am feeling so sad right now and i have nobody to talk with)

 

Typical singaporean

Many of the places, whether peak or non-peak period. I will always see people who do typical things. And most of them are aunties!! I really can't stand the way they act in public.

Whenever i am in public transport via bus or mrt, i will always see aunties rushing for seats. They always cut queue and push people. They don't think for others whether if you are carrying loads... of stuffs or you are a pregnant lady..

Typical singaporean always give trouble and do irritating things to annoy you. I have many real experiences of encounting aunties and one of the incident happened to be an old lady coming and ask me to get up for seat when i'm not even sitting at the reserved seat! Terrible. Is okay if you want a seat. As long as we can see you and you are really in need, we will give it to you. But i just can't understand why aunties always do things which we don't like. Gerenally everybody don't like.

They are so irritating, annoying, have the "Kiasu" action and of course a attention seeker!! I know some elderly are really in need of a helping hand but not all.

The most typical action cause by typical singaporean is being "Kiasu". The second typical action is when there is "FREE" stuffs, typical singaporean will always queue for it. Even if the free stuff is a pack of tissue.You can always see the happening everywhere in singapore.

I hope i won't be like this when i grow up!

What's your favourite look?

Talking about favourite "look". Many of girls love dolling up! With makeups, pretty clothings. accessories and all.


What's your fashion taste like and what's your favourite look?

There are people who wears different type of clothing all around..

-People who are love simple : Tshirt, short and slipper
-People who are punk : Top + Bottom + Boot +  Cap (With the most common colour black and love studded)
-People who are rugged : Top + Bottom + Boot (Love brown the most)
-People who are girly : Anything that makes you look very girly (Floral, Laces, pink, bling and more)
-People who wanted to look like office girl : Formal looking (Formal top + Long pants or pencil skirt)

So which is YOU?

Dolling up yourself into the a real princess? Or being rugged? Or love being simple and easy without putting enough effort? Or looking cool at all the time with the most common colour "Black"? Or loving the look of formal?

My choice :)

My personally favourite look is being girly!! Girly is most of the favourite female's choice as it makes girl look more feminine. With the more girly stuffs on you, will make you look girly and your movement will look more gentle too. And i love simple too. Sometimes i went out having only basic makeup on my face and wearing just tshirt + short + slipper.. Hmm, that's fine.

Never wear them :(

The only few lookings which i strongly never wear them is rugged and punk. I personally don't prefer those look at all. Rugged and punk is almost the same. Both will only make you turn into boy's looking and people might be mistaken that you're tomboy! And it doesn't look nice at all. Being rugged is like wearing over-size tees + 3/4 pants and high-cut boots with sometimes a cap. Being punk is like being evil, all in the colour of black!! And i hate the studded even more because that will only makes you look like boy. Boys love studded stuffs, punk and rugged isn't it? So why some girls love wearing them?

Am not understanding all these.

Being a girl should wear more girly stuffs and doll up to be like a princess. I'm sure most of the guys love their girl to look like princess too right. With most of the stuffs on them look pink and purple. How lovely is that!!

Just say whatever you want! *Angry*

Just some happening in my life that are so pissing me out!!!!!

*If you are not happy with me then ask me to fuck off!* I am definitely not going to stay any longer here and shall not tolerant any more nonsense from you anymore. I did not do any wrong thing, i don't deserve all this from you at all. What rights have you got, to scold me in vulgarities (Which i hate the most) when i'm not even DOING ANYTHING WRONG?

Few days ago..

Tell me please??

-Is there anything wrong if i don't buy your dinner?
-When i asked what food would you like to eat and you simply answered don't know?
-I gave you the types of food and next thing you did not reply my whatsapp?

SO YOU CAME HOME AND COMPLAINED TO YOUR MOM THAT I DID NOT BUY FOOD FOR U!!!!!????

*By the way, I'm a very sensitive person who get very sensitive in even a small react you make. And by the way, don't judge my ears.. They are too small but they are very sharp. Sometimes i can even hear whatever i'm not supposed to hear*

So. Look! Whose in the fault right now? You blamed me for everything that i did not buy food for you!

Fyi, i'm not even your stomach!! How would i know what kind of foods you want? And you are a very fussy person. I always tried to buy good food for you and nothing seems to satisfy you. You always complain about food and this is happening all the time ok. Many times i came back with good food that i personally picked and you always keep whining about eating the same food again?

So what am i going to do? Tell me.

Thing seems to be better after a day or so and i thought he was just really hungry that day. I did not want a quarrel or a fight and i'm just letting this to pass. I am not going to do silly thing and end everything just like this. *No way*

So today i bought him japanese food. When i reached home..

He: Buy me food.
She: I've bought your food, go and eat.
He: What food did you buy? Japanese food?
She: Yes, is japanese food.
He: Japanese food again? Eat it later then.
He: Why you always keep buying Japanese food?
She: How would i know what food you want to eat?
He: You don't know how to ask me?
She: That day i messaged you what food you want to eat and you did not reply.
He: Then you can think of other food la, why keep buying the same food.

So i kept quiet.

I always wanted a very peaceful life.. Work, play, enjoy.. I did not ask for anything much. I believed that people who are close to me would understand me and my own character. I am a very easy-going and a very happy-go-lucky person. I can treat you the best and the worst. I always have a very positive mindset that always been brighten up my life. I love helping people who needs help and would never asked for a return. I would be very happy if you appreciated it and be thankful.

I treat everyone equally the same and of course the most important is you.

I always tried my best, my best for you. You will never know how much important you are to me.. You will never know and you knew nothing. 

It seems like things are drifting us apart and many unhappy things are all towards to me. I feel utterly sad. Disappointed. *Tears* I feel that we are not the same anymore. You are not you anymore. I can feel the difference. I can feel the change. I can feel that everything is fading bits by bits..

I will never expect things to become like this. I always thought that i'm giving happiness to you. I always thought. But well, i am wrong.. I am just making you sick and tired of me. I am doing things which you doesn't like and hate the sight of me. I believe is time for me go......

*Tears*

(Well, sometimes ranting my problems here is somehow better than telling people and showing off my weakness to them.)

The drama "十兄弟"

I'm currently soo addicted to this drama.. Ten brothers ("十兄弟")!!

Okay, this is an old drama!! I've watched this before in channel 8 since don't know how many years ago and somehow randomly i watched it again in this early morning 2am. A recalled back, many years ago i remembered  "十兄弟" was a drama and i searched through the whole entire youtube but couldn't find it so i thought of watching the "十兄弟" movie which was found at youtube. The duration was about an hour.

I was hoping to watch "十兄弟" drama!!! I swear i was a little lazy to find this drama at other website because i was so excited to watch the "十兄弟" movies on youtube lol.

Despite of thinking to get "十兄弟" dvd, i have decided to watch it online.. And here, finally i found. Not as hard as i thought of hahaha. I would love to watch them during my free time!!

I'm watching it @http://www.alodrama.com/watch-ten-brothers-episode-1/6193.html !!

Miss selfridge

Somedays i saw this brand, "Miss selfridge" at vivo city. To my first glance, it looks really really lovely. And i really really like the colour alot, most of them are in baby pink, baby blue for all are in baby colours lol. The lovely image had then captured in my heart and i was so attracted to one of the dress so much.

So one day, i went into this Miss selfridge shop and i went all around. The shop was really small and  there were not much variety. I took a closer look of the previous dress which i was attracted to and the prices was SGD $137. Not expensive tho.  Somehow i love how the dress was made, in detail laces. How lovely!

And today, i went to "Miss selfridge" website and i was looking at the clothes.. There were more variety and to my suprise, online was selling cheaper then retail. It was about SGD $20-$30 difference and for more then 60 (In europe dollars), there will be a free shipping!

Here are some of the items i had picked..

Their products are simple and nice. Very relaxing colour, eg : Baby blue, baby pink and pure white. Love the feeling of each product there.

 

And this is the lovely dress i'm talking about.. :

 

 

I'm abit starting falling in love with this Miss selfridge.. *Wink*

First Samantha Thavasa long wallet

Oh so today i went out shopping with my friend, kalasta. We went orchard for shopping!! It was very crowded because it was a saturday. I don't usually like shopping on weekends. Being pushed and sandwitched together.. *Phew* But no choice, i believed this coming june i'm gonna be super busy for any more shopping soo i'm trying to pamper myself now before the major of GSS get started.

The crowd is getting more crowded and crowded and soon it will be flooded with many people! (Ok, i'm not here to talk anymore about GSS, the blog post of GSS shopping hual  2013 will be updated to next following month.)

Am here to talk about my first Samantha Thavasa wallet!!

I have been looking for a new pink wallet for a very long time. I always have been dreaming of having a very nice baby pink long wallet with heart shape designs (If possible). And yes, i found it today at Samantha Thavasa. I actually did not thought of the brand, Samantha Thavasa.

So my friend and i were shopping at ion. We were randomly walking pass Samantha Thavasa and accidentally saw the signage of  "Up to50% off". I was curious and hop we go!! It was my very first time stepping in there and i never had any of their product yet. All of their products look so lovely and i was confused of which design to choose.

Then to first glance.. I saw this baby glowy pink heart-shape long wallet!! It look so lovely and beautiful. I love it. And it was on 30% off!! How can i not have it? The sales girl even told me about their promotion running on that if i would to pay by DBS/POSB credit or debit card i will to get additional 10% off for the sales item!! And after all the deduction it was only at $160 sgd. Worth it right!!


Here's the photo of my chio wallet :

Am very happy to have this great buy today!! So lucky girl!! Love the colour!!

Having cats

Many of people were asking why do i keep cats instead of dogs?

Chinese's believing that cats are simply not good. But as for me, being a pure chinese loves both cats and dogs. Cats is as no different as dog except the sound they make. Both cats and dogs are good, cute, loveable.. They bring joy to everyone. (And i do love dogs too!!)

I have a very positive thinking towards everything and i truely believe that cats bring no harm but being protective towards their owner and family. 

Me love cats!!

Do NOT!!

*Do not assume that cats are harmful
*Do not assume that cats are stupid
*Do not bully cats

Cat's factor

Cats are very cute, likeable and have soft fur! Cats are very quiet and love to be alone at times. Cats do not afraid of cold. Cats love to sleep during the day and super active at night. Cat's favourite food are fish. Cats love treats too.


Just 3 years back, i brought my first pet kitten home.. It was then my life had changed..

 My kitten ahboy

 

His name is "Ahboy". He was a lil kitten fill with cuteness.. The day we brought him home was 8th January 2011.

 

He look so cute!! Adorable kitten!!

 

He was a cute kitten. Everybody likes him. He loves to eat everything. Fish, chicken, pork, rice, french fries, bread and etc. He do love to eat cockroaches and lizard too. (I ever saw him catching a fly and eat it. "Fly" ok!! He was fast!). He love playing with ball, soft toy, string and anything that can move. He always shake his butt while aiming for things lol. How adorable he can be!!

 

I really really love him!! He is a very smart cat and attention seeker. He always seek for attention when he did something proud like he caught lizard or cockcoach. He is such a good boy that he don't shit or pee anywhere in the house. And the best thing about him is he listens to you attentive and somehow he do response to you by blinking his eye to you or by moving his lil tail..

 

I love to carry him around the house and carry him high up to breathe in fresh air.. He love doing the sniff sniff action with his red nose lol.

Few years had passed.. I realized something.. Ahboy's fear.

 

Ahboy's fear

Sometimes whenever i'm free i will bring him out for a walk arounnd under the blk void-deck. He was so afraid to see the outside world. I believe it was me who did not train him to go out during young time. And that's make him to be afraid.

He would stay in the lift and did not want to step out. When i carry him on my arm, he always tried to run away and wanted to hide somewhere. He was very afraid that someone might take him away..

It might be because he had fallen from 8th storey which makes him to be afraid of..

 

(S0 here's the story of what had happened)...

 

Months after i brought him back.. On somewhere april's 2011, this unpredictable thing happened.

One day, I received this news from my boyfriend's mom that ahboy fallen off from 8th storey, he vomitted a pool of blood and his poo came out, out of his frightening. I was at work. I quickly ran out of work and to the pet clinic that he was admitted to.

I was told from the doctor that he had broken his arm and he had a hole in his lung, one of his teeth had dropped off. Doctor said that he could not survive anymore. (I was very sad, i felt like crying.. I couldn't accept the fact that he is going to leave us so soon) Doctor then gave me a suggestion that to bring him to hospital for a better treatment as hospital got their machine for everything and is way more better.

:(:( :(:(:(:(:(:(:(

 

So i brought my cat in a carrier to the hospital. Doctor then attend to me in a few minutes later and brought my cat in. After sometimes, doctor came to me and say everything was not right. I was told the same thing as what the previous doctor told me. My cat's condition was very bad and he might die anytime. I asked what things could be done? She said that must do an operation on his stomach to do something to his lung as the air was leaking out slowly from the lung. The doctor then said but the operation might not be successfully.

I was stunned at that point of time and did not know what to do.. It was a very hard desicion for me to choose because Ahboy's life is in my hand.

End up, i brought him back home.. He was feeling weak, very quiet, shocked.. I was crying while i was on my way home. I felt very sad, felt sorry for my cat. I can see in his eye that he was very pain. He broke his left arm and not unable to walk. I covered him with a blanket as i was told by doctor. Next day, he became better a bit. He was trying to get up by itself and wanted to come out from the cage. His eyes talks alot. It was then i opened the cage and i went to kitchen to prepare food for him. At a few second later, i saw him jumping out from the cage and was trying to walk in a glimp. I almost cried out (As it was a very touching scene). I quickly ran to him and was trying to help him. I was then suddenly think that he might wanna go to toilet. I asked my boyfriend mom for help and brought a pail to him. And to what i thought, he pee out.

 

"How a understanding cat he is!!" I thought in my heart. He was really really a good boy. He took his hard effort to walk to the toilet despite his broken arm. It was my first time seeing such a scene in my whole entire life. It shows that my cat did not give up and continue going! From that moment onwards, i decided not to give up on him and will fight with him together.

 That night, he was lying on bed. He could not sleep. He was looking at me with both his eyes. I looked at him back and was guessing that he might be hungry. I took some food for him and he ate all.

I was happy to see him getting more active bit by bit. I'm happy that he can feel hungry. I'm happy that he could eat.

Day by day he started to walk, run and jump.. It seems like whatever the doctor said, was wrong. I was very surpised for the result of my cat's recovery. It was so soon that everything gets better and back to the perfect days

 

 

I'm hereby here, thanking god for everything that you gave me. I will cherish everything you gave me. Thank you.

 

 

 And here is him today..

 

  Cute and chubby. He become handsome!!

 Love him.

 

*With him in my life is definitely gonna be perfect. Love him.*

 

 

 

Soon.. Last year, during december my boyfriend found a female kitten. It was then another love appear in my life..

 

 

My kitten Meimei

 

 

 

Sometimes ago, last year 8th december 2012. We had another kitten. Her name is "Meimei". She was very cute. She was very active, hyper, smart and very obedient. Many people said that she was worth of SGD $4000 dollars because she was a rare cat with mix blood. On her body's spot was very unique and rare seen.

 

We wouldn't know until our neighbour told us and they are the real expert of knowing cat's stuffs. They had their own 7 amazing cats before!

 

Meimei loves to cry.. Maybe because she was still young and she is a girl. Normally girl will cry more and want to seek more attention to their mummy right. And yes, she is a girl too, a young girl who needs more care and concern. I love her crying sound, it makes me even want to hug her more. Right now meimei is only 5th months.  She often bully her korkor (Ahboy) by biting his tail. Lol.

They always bully each other by playing, running,"fighting".  I really love the cats running around the house like how i can imagine my two kids are chasing each other! So fun and active! They love doing things together like eating, sleeping, playing and even going in toilet to do their business. They never want to be alone. So lovely brother and sister.

 
Both of them really made my day. Can't live without them <3

 

Looking forward to GSS!

The whole month of JUNE & JULY is going to have GSS SALES!!! Great Singapore Sales (GSS) is my favourite and i'm really going to be crazy for all clothing, accessories and makeups. I can really feel the excitment now, *Muahawahahas*!

GSS is really a good time for shopping and i really love it. Some of the brand like : Cotton on, Accessorizes, Lovisa. Their markdown sales are really good & cheap! It can be up to 70% off too!! And i really enjoying shopping them.

This year great singapore sales is gonna be more exciting as compared to last year because i've already know which are my favourite brands!! Last year my favourite brands were, MJPHOSIS, COTTON ON and some random brands (Yawns, boring).

But this year is gonna be totally different.

As i've listed down the list of my top favourites brand on right side of my blog, it showns :

♥My top favourite brands♥

- Lovisa
- Accessorizes
- Forever21
- Etude House

* Lovisa & Accessorizes brands are for my acessories's shopping. Their acessories are really pretty.

* Forever21 brand is for my clothing's shopping. Their clothing are simple and pretty. Floral and glittering clothing are loved.

* Etude house brand is for my makeup's shopping. Their makeup will make your skin look beautiful.

(Currently this Four shopping brands are my top favourite.)

Yes! Those are my top favourite brands, like going to be forever. I'm loving them soo much ♥

I'm going to be crazy for their GSS sales and will definitely get many pretty things back! *Looking forward for the day*

Ok.. So I've this intention to spend about $800 or more for all the things. And is gonna be alot of things i guess? It's okay. SALES is the best time for grabbing good & cheap stuffs. And the best part of me is, i don't really shop for branded stuffs like Lv, Prada, Gucci those kind. Nah. Erm.. But, I admit i do like the luxuary brand of "Chanel".. *Winks* However, I'm freaking dislike the colour of black. Nah. So NO. Inspired chanel bag maybe? But it must be in pinkkk!


OK. I'm so excited for the GSS to get started and can't wait for it. See ya! Will be updated on 2 months later for my GSS shopping hual!!

The emotions

What are your emotion?

Wheel emotions

This says that the basic eight emotions are:

*Fear  → feeling afraid. Other words are terror (strong fear), shock, phobia

*Anger → feeling angry. A stronger word is rage.
Sadness → feeling sad. Other words are sorrow, grief (a stronger feeling, for example when someone has died) or *Depression → (feeling sad for a long time). Some people think depression is a different emotion.
*Joy → feeling happy. Other words are happiness, gladness.
Disgust → feeling something is wrong or dirty
*Trust → a positive emotion; admiration is stronger; acceptance  is weaker
*Anticipation  → in the sense of looking forward positively to something which is going to happen. Expectation is more neutral.
*Surprise → how one feels when something unexpected happens

Other emotions :

* Anger, opposite calmness (not feeling excited)
*Friendship (Love), opposite enmity (feeling hate)
*Fear, opposite confidence (having no fear)
*Shame, opposite shamelessness (shame: how one feels about one's past bad actions or thoughts; shamelessness: one does not feel shame, but others think one should.)
*Kindness (benevolence), opposite unkindness (kindness: when people are good to other people)
*Pity (when people feel sorry for other people)
*Indignation (feeling angry because something is not fair, such as undeserved bad fortune)
*Envy, jealous (pain when people have something that one wishes for oneself)

This "language" has words showing these emotions:

-Simple emotions-

*Discovery - confusion
*Surprise - no surprise - expectation
*Wonder - surprise - commonplace
*Happiness - unhappiness
*Amusement - weariness
*Courage - timidity - cowardice
*Pity - cruelty

-Complex emotions-

*Pride - modesty- shame
*Closeness - detachment - distance
*Complaint/pain - doing average - pleasure
*Caution - boldness - rashness
*Patience - mere tolerance - anger
*Relaxation - composure - stress
*Envy - goodwill

-Pure emotions-

*Fear - nervousness - security
*Togetherness - privacy
*Respect - disrespect
*Appreciation - envy
*Love - no love lost - hatred
*Hope - despair
*Confusion - being confused


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To me, emotion is a feeling that can change as fast as per second.

And i myself, don't have much emotion. Mainly all are due to public surrounding affection that i will always tend to get fed up with people inside the train or some of my nasty customer. The rest are fine.

I'm happy with everything in my life. Happy that i'm happy now. I have family, friends, colleagues, boyfriend and cats.. They are all very nice.

I'm always having this happy emotion at all times. And it is a very positive way of looking towards life. Being positive is also being a winner and self build-up confidence.

But not good thing happens at all times.. Bad things do too.


During the bad day, you will facing really down and start all the negative's thinking. And sometimes, one emotion's can become another's to emotionally dropped off. Hence, it is very important to control your own emotion too..

*It's alright to quarrel once in a while because there isn't a perfect thing in the world*


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Ebay rocks

After hours of browsering at ebay.. It really make me feel like buying all juicy couture stuffs. The clothing, swim swear, hoodies, bags and everything. They are very pretty, i swear. But the thing is.. Most of their thing is NO LONGER new anymore!! Arghh. I will never wear a "Second hand" thing on me. And who knows which chick who used it before, eeee so gross.

But just by looking at the photos. it made my day. Somehow i wish i can get them someday. But probably wait until i'm totally free one fine day and i will find out how to use paypal as i have NEVER ever once in my life knowing how to use.

And wtf is that? I really don't know.

So here are some of the items from ebay that are so lovely..

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love all of  them. But always when i decided to get them, i will have a mindset that, *AM I GETTING A SECOND HAND STUFF*?

 

Am really really dislike getting second hand stuffs and i will never never do it. I believe sometimes people do lie about the stuffs they already used, i strongly believe they do. They look as if they are new item but somehow actually it had been wore once or twice without leaving any stains or whatever.

 

And when people who used the item before, did NOT take good care of them and dump it aside as they like. Who knows if they are those unhygenic person who don't wash their hand after use of toilet? Who knows if they dig nose and stain at the clothes? Is SUPER GROSS. And for all it happened, we don't know. We don't know what's the real happening.. So that's what i'm scare of. Dirty, used, disgusting , unhygenic, and super gross. Wtf?

 

But.. There are some things that you can get in ebay!! Like handphone cover, usage of electroic devices. Who cares if they were all used before?

 

I don't care, i don't give a damn. Because things like devices will be dirty in months if you don't take good care of them and they are handy stuffs that will get dirty very soon.

 

I'm actually intending to get myself a new hp cover in baby pink! I'm currently using a plain white  handphone cover from a blogshop which cost $59.90. I was told it was made of good quality and to what i've received it was much much worse than ebay's selling at only $30. Wtf right. It looks like those cheapo kind. And the blogshop owner is actually my friend. (I felt like i kenna cheated *sobsob*) Lol whatever.

 

Ebay is really a good shopping website except they are also selling second hand stuffs.. I will try to find some time to shop at ebay soon!! :D