The moment of my last breathe before death, my mind flashes through the images of my most happiest moments with my loves one, telling god how much i would want to be alive again.
I'd always never been so sad, unhappy, fear,afraid, crazy over work. And all these, is making me felt like a life-threatening to me.
In earlier days, everything is going so perfectly fine. I was never once sad before.It was my happiest life of time and i will never forget it.
Once changed, forever will change. I remembered the day, when i knew I will be transfer out from the store. My tears dropped. My heart had almost dropped out.
Because i knew, everything will changed. And yes, it really changed for sure..... For either better or worse..
I've always been alone, doing things alone.. I've always an extra person. Whatever languages people spoke, i don't seems to understand. And when i tried to understand, it seems hard. Sometimes i wanted to make a quick guess but it difficults me.
Things were rather tough here and nothing seems to please me. There were a few times, i am really down in a bad mood. I struggled to move on. I've tried to do my best to please people however sometimes i think is not worth doing it.
The people, laziness, responsiblity, respect. It doesn't seems to have any basic knowlege or respect.
I missed the past, super missed my past. I know i have to move on. I know things will never come back to the same anymore. I know looking forward to my bright future is the best.
xox
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